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Life Hero, next best thing to Guitar Hero

For no apparent reason, I’ve begun comparing life to guitar hero.

Everybody has their “high moments,” which resembles those +50 note streaks that we all get every now and again playing the game. Most people at these times get hubris (excessive pride), and begin to not care about what they’re doing, and so most likely mess up. What I like to do is think “hmmm…..that’s nice” and just continue doing what I’m doing, and try not to think about how great I’m doing.

Everybody also has their “low moments,” which is when it’s nearly impossible to hit even half of the notes. These times are the hardest to get through, and the frustration doesn’t help. What I do is take a moment to stop, then recollect my “rhythm,” then get back in the game.

Then there are times like Christmas, which is a lot like “star power.” It gives you that automatic boost to the top that just makes those “low moments” just a thing of the past.

Funny thing is, my faith, my friends, and my church do the same thing. Of course there are some times when even a star power isn’t going to help, but it’s always there.

 Merry Christmas everybody! I guess I’ll see you all later today.

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Catching Up with the Flow

Ah hell it’s a bitch to have the burden of homework. It’s even worse when you go to the teacher the next day and have to tell them that you didn’t finish it.

That’s how it’s been for me for a while now. I keep falling behind, and it gets harder and harder to catch up. With my last few weeks especially things have gotten out of control.

Here is what I have to do to catch up:

  • construct a family timeline
  • write 3 lab reports
  • chem AP h/w (over 25 questions that are damn near impossible to answer w/o studying)
  • 3 nights worth of Statistics (AP) homework (each night consists of 5-6 problems that makes me end up feeling like I’m reading Chinese…..)
  • interview 25 questions with somebody over the age of 70 (damn it Keith, why are you so young?)

All of this on top of my nightly homework. My mind is in a flurry, and the only reason why I’m not doing it now is because mom took the chair I was using that had everything set up so I can do my h/w, plus has an automan so I can elevate my leg and put ice on it. So now I have to wait for her to go to bed (she refuses to move), or I have to carry all my books and crap upstairs to my bedroom so I can work on my homework in my freezing room on my bed. Which, surprisingly enough, is the only other place I can work on my homework…..

Damn it!!! xP

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Popped Out, and Back In Again

Wow, what a fight!

 Taking claim of the hill was no easy matter, and so after a while of tackling people and tossing them down the hill, I took matters toward the snowballs. Unlimited ammo at the bottom with sitting ducks at the top, what better scenario can there be? Others started to come and attack me while I threw endless snow.

Eventually almost everybody was into the snowball fight. There were pure massacres, not to mention merciless revenge. A hit never went unanswered, and the laughing only continued to rise.

There were alliances, truces, broken truces, and white washing. At the end was the climax for sure. Joe and Neil were going in together against everybody, and I threw my fair share at them, and so into the background I went to rest and recuperate. I was rolling up a large snowball for when I would go back into the chaos, when all of a sudden Neil pushed me as Joe kneeled behind me in a classic tag-team take down. My snowball had found a new owner.

I played it off trying to hit somebody else with it, enabling myself to discreetly get into range with my heavy artillery. I lobbed it as fast as I could, and he tried to block it. Snow exploded everywhere from his block, and he got a good deal from it. I could hear him cackling with insane revenge close at hand with white-washing in waiting for me as he chased me down.

As he neared I fell down to my knees, which sent him flying over me completely! Oh how I was going to get it had I stayed.

Later on in the madness of the night, we came face-to-face again, but this time we settled on peace, and went our own ways.

I tried tackling fellow word members, but to no avail. Realizing this I went back to a barrage of snowballs onto anyone locked into my sight.

Finally the fight was coming to a close. I had just thrown my last snowball when I heard someone coming from behind. As I turned he came upon me and took me down with a swift trip.

Oh how I went down, but when he hit me I thought something moved out of place, maybe in a pocket. Damn I was surely wrong when I tried to move my leg and felt the pain surge through me. I went down right there and the overwhelming shock took me in. I felt my knee and realized that it was a piece of it that had moved.

I screamed in pain and asked Neil to feel my ****ing knee to see if he felt something wrong too. He did and it was then I realized my knee had popped out of place. Soon enough everybody gathered around to see what happened, but hardly anyone grasped the seriousness at hand (especially someone who decided to drop a snowball into my ear). Caroling soon broke out, and mockery towards me mixed in with it as it progressed through the song. At this point was when I wanted to release whatever it was inside my guts that so badly wanted to come out (a.k.a. vomit).

Finally I had had enough and completely exploded. I cursed every word that could be considered a curse towards those who mocked me as I lay shivering in pain. I just wanted the noise to stop, that endless gnawing at the back of my head grew as their volume grew. They finally realized what was going down, and many backed off. Finally I had some quiet.

Soon enough help arrived, but in the parking lot which seemed 1/4 a mile away. After my struggle to get up (with the help of Neil and Alex) I took one glimpse and broke down inside knowing the pain that would come with the “walk” to the car. By this time I was exhausted, near the point of fainting and possibly with minor hypothermia. They talked with me to the car, trying to keep me awake.

When we began walking I tried to help with my good leg, but that channeled feeling right to my bad leg, which hurt like hell. After the first two breaks I decided to just let them drag me. As we neared the car I could feel both of them losing their strength, and feared that we would all go down in agonizing pain. But somehow we all made it to the car. By this time I could barely keep my head up, and could really only mumble. I felt for sure if I didn’t pass out that I would for sure puke all over Neil’s car.

Bad enough it was that I laid in the backseat of his car with a mudy coat and muddy pants, so I took off my shoe on my good leg just so that there would be no shoe print.

The whole way there I kept conversation with Neil mostly, and kept asking him if I could go to sleep. I was so cold and tired that I would’ve been more awake after being hit with a tranquilizer, but somehow I managed.

I thanked God when I got out of the car (by myself willingly) and saw a wheelchair. From there on everything became increasingly better, except for my uncontrollable shivering.

When the doctor checked my knee, I realized it had moved back into place (most likely from the dragging to the car), and realized how lucky I ended up being.

I tried in vain to call my mom on the way to the hospital, but finally was able to contact her in the waiting room, and she came not too long after.

I just want to say how thankful I am for Neil’s help with everything, from dragging me to the car, to driving me to the hospital, to waiting by my side the whole time I was in the patient’s room, to bringing me taco bell, to washing my coat. He actually made my experience enjoyable (except for the whole pain part, lol).

Thanks man!

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Dreaming a Reality

Ahhhhh yeah………the most incredible thing happened last night. I told Kyle, but I don’t think he was able to grasp what I was saying, or maybe I wasn’t saying it right, but whatever 7:30am is not a good conversational time.

Anyways what happened:

I was up most of the night finishing my homework, and around 3-4am I decided to hell with it and went to sleep. Before I did I turned off my light, and I had this dark feeling come over me, like something was right behind me, but I chose to ignore it (3am leaves little care for anything) and drifted off into a nightmare.

It was the kind I hated the most. The type of dream where it’s like you wake up, but you’re still asleep and you know it, but you can’t wake yourself up. I sat up in bed and tried to turn on the lamp….which of course didn’t turn on. My room was darker than usual, and I really wanted to have some light. I tried to turn on my iPod (to use the light that lights up the screen), but that didn’t work. I tried to turn on the main light with the switch, but that wouldn’t work either. By now I was freaking out, because I knew there was something else there, and I also knew I’d be safe in the light. I left my room and tried the hall light which also didn’t work. Nothing was working and I was going insane with fear. Whatever it was that was there was close, and I hated the feeling it gave off…..that cold, bitter feeling that left me feeling as though everything inside of me shriveled up. I couldn’t wake up mom, because she was in Columbus for the night (and she really was for conferences). I was about to breakdown knowing that I was all alone with this fear.

That was when my alarm clock woke me up at 5am (so I could work on a little bit more homework). The first thing I did was reach over and turn on the lamp. This new light finally made me feel safe, and so I prayed to God that he would keep me safe.

I went back to sleep terrified that I would have a similar dream.

Fact of the matter is that all of a sudden everything was fine. I was in the Outer Banks (North Carolina summer vacation) with mom and my sisters (and my sisters’ families). I entered the dream watching a sunrise to a new day that I just knew would be an amazing one. Slowly everybody else woke up and began to start their day. It was then that I realized how much I loved my family, and how much they love me. We left the rented house to go visit the stores along the banks, and while browsing through the aisles of a huge store that smelled of scented candles, I woke up.

I woke up with a whole new perspective, and a stronger faith. While getting ready for school I thanked God for everything (like I usually do in my mornings) in my life, but also for answering my prayer.

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